We all have our own interests and likes that influence us and who we are in varying ways. My main influences are obvious – books, friends and family. All my life I have loved books, my friends and family even if I have shy and have trouble around new people (I am getting better though!) I take great pleasure in who I am and things I love but I haven’t always been that way. While in High School (I attending an all girls private school which should say it all) I hid my online interests, afraid that I would be bullied. I made one mistake while in year ten/form 4/aged 16, where I linked to my livejournal and someone decided to find a graphic harry/severus fanfiction and claimed it was mine. That taught me a lot and led me to hide it though a handful of people were aware, perhaps not to the full extent though. This person? She was a bitch and I’m glad to no longer have anything to do with her as my life is so much better now.
Since leaving High School and moving onto the work place, Uni and meeting some fabulous people I realise that it is a lot harder to hide parts of who you are than be who you are in full. This has lead me to take steps to embrace who I am, not hide parts of me from the world even if I know they won’t fully accept it. To some extents I do keep parts of my life seperate though – I don’t talk about certain things on Facebook, I have two twitters – one focused on Roleplay and the other not. Though apart from the RP tweets on one twitter, both essentially have the exact same tweets. Some might not understand this but at the rate I do talk about RP I figured it was the best so not to bore all the people who aren’t into it.
The point? Be yourself no matter what others thing, it makes you happier and your life better over all. Find what interests you and embrace it. Trust me, while some people might not like it, i the long run it is better for you and all those involved. I have always had a love books (as seen below) and I haven’t kept that a secret but as I discover myself more so I discover that while I am a geek and love gothic things, I love “boy” things – I wondered into EB games the other day and bought Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: Sith Lords and HP 7 computer games I also like girly things too. I have discovered I love jewelry and making it (though I hate spending money on it so cheap is good), I’m getting more into dresses and skirts and clothes and developing my own fashion style that isn’t as mainstream (slowly getting the courage), a love of massages (brilliant!) and even have bought myself some face moisturizer something I would never have dreamed of owning before. I will not touch make up though (or at least at the moment – I have extremely dry and easily irritated skin and just find I rub too much when I wear it).




Not only do I have a love for books, art and crafty stuff I’m discovering, I’m also discovering a deeper love of music. While I have always loved it, I think that since meeting Millie and discovering Last.fm I have developed a bigger love for music and more artists to the point I am obsessed. I often find inspiration from these songs. Songs from The Corrs like Hurt Before, Run Away, Someone for Someone etc all give me hope and inspiration for the future, that there is something good out there and no matter how bad life has been that it can improve. Even songs from Within Temptation, Nightwish and HIM have inspirational themes to them even if at first they might not be obvious (and some songs are just awesome which is awesome).
I am (I hope!) – a geek, a girl, a goth, a princess, a music lover, self confident, friendly, loyal, honest, independent, dependent, trustworthy, writer, failing artist in training but most importantly, I am me.
No matter what happens in your life, remember that you have to maintain your sense of self identity as if not you are no one. With it though, you will be a much more interesting person. Don’t be afraid to step outside of your shell, explore new things, meet new people. Perhaps, just perhaps you shall discover something you excel at but never thought that you would. Remember to, Create your own you, when it comes to life.